blunami

WHAT a GREAT time O. and i had at Sampler this year! WOW.
i have only been to Sampler once in my five year span as a leatherdyke and that was five years ago. i had been serving O. as Her full time submissive for less than one month and it was my first full weekend event. i was nervous, scared, apprehensive, excited. She teaches genitorture, fisting, and play piercing for beginners and let me tell you, the clean-up involved with genitorture is rather immense.
First you have to set out all of the options of things to use. THEN you have CLEAN all of the little things that GET used. And this boi doesn't just kinda clean. This boi scrubs in steaming water then viruscides then lets dry and puts back away. At Sampler each presenter works 12 1 hr one-on-one sessions. IT's VERY busy. So, back then i was learning to clean and scrub and serve and be present and prompt and polite and respectful and learning the ways of my Ma'am and learning the ways of myself and learning the ways of traditional and not-so traditional leather living. It was scary.

Fast forward five years.

She was invited back to present this year and was grateful and excited as Sampler has always been a very special event for Her. Now it is a very special event for BOTH of us, full of memories and heart-felt smiles. Obviously i passed the "test" of the weekend back then and this weekend i was on my toes. It was a pure joy to serve Her fully this weekend as She showed people how to play with the infinite possibilities of the cunt.

i also had the chance to connect fully with people that, up to this point, i have only been able to kind-fo get to know. slavegirldebbie was a delight to work with. my brothers-in-leather were WONDERFUL to watch and play with, and i loved seeing the miriade of "family" that i won't mention because i don't know if i can on a public space like this. But i hope you know who you are and that i loved being with you this weekend.

i had the honor of hosting a submissive rap/workshop. What a BLAST to have an hour to talk about this life we lead and to discuss the "issues" and "problems" that come up for us as leatherfolk and specifically as bottoms/slaves/sumissives. And what a pleasure to have a joyous discussion that was serious yet light, deep and intense yet full of laughter and elebration. Because that is what i do, i celebrate my path even when it's not so easy.
Human relationships aren't always full of chocolate and sensuous music. Sometimes they are scary, hard, difficult, frustrating and often plain dull. To take the time to acknowledge that it isn't easy to be connected is often as far as some people get. But i believe that the next step is to celebrate the connectedness that we all have even when it's painful, hard, scary, or even ending. Because being connected means we are alive. We are living. We are BEING. And THAT is the beauty of my submission. i am alive in it.

We stopped and lost a little bit of money at Morongo then headed home. Once we got home i unpacked our bags and fed the dogs. Now i am catching up on emails, blogs, messages on the phone.

One order of DESIRE business.
We are thinking about taking over a small resort across the street so that attendees could rent a room and walk back and forth. The current quotes range from about $110-$220 per night depending on which resort we take over and what size room you want to stay in.

Would you want to stay across the street? Yes, this is an informal poll so feel free to reply (even if you don't plan on attending i am curious to see if you'd spend the money on convenience if you COULD)

Gonna go crash now.

tired boi blu
P.S. Life is GOOD. Enjoy yourself