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It's been 5 weeks since I posted anything here on LJ. Oh, I post on Myspace but it's sparce as well and sometimes flipant (unless I'm unleashing about school).

DESIRE was without a doubt the most amazing event of the year! This was year 4 and I think it went of with spit-shined precision. The work crew was awesome. The food plenty and good, the amazing participants were just that... amazing. The presenter were possibly the most skilled women of the country. They were kind with the participants, gentle with the ones who were scared and absolutely fucked with everyone they could on every level and that was absolutely surreal to watch sometimes.

I was branded at the end of the event. Anyone who wanted to watch could, and I think at one point nearly 100 women were trying to see O. put Her mark into my flesh. It was amazing!
The ride was like nothing I have ever taken. There may be something similar in the way a junkie feels on the first needle, that ride they chase to thier grave, but I don't have to chase anything into the grave to feel that way again. It has stayed on many levels. First the physical was ... well it HURT! FOr crying out loud I had my flesh seared. But I surrendered into the pain, into my Ma'am and Her ownership and Her mark and our renewed union I flew like I have never flown. I walked and talked but my spirit was floating with Yemaja somewhere in the Ocean. That's what it felt like.
I flew for two days. Two days of the deepest peace, quiet, surrendered, content, floating feeling. Two days of hot, sweet, sensuous desire. My skin was fire in many more ways than one. I am a masochist. If not by choice by nature. And when I can let myself have my masochism for what it realy is to me then I am by far more alive, more serene, more sane, and more real than when I deny it's existance. Or when I fight it. Or when I think it's not there.
I am free when I am bound. I am free to fly when I am at the end of a whip (or red hot piece of steel.) I am free when I am held down by the One who Owns me and when She uses me, claims me, proclaims Her ownership in ANY way I am nothing more than the most powerful woman you will ever meet and I am hot and I am happy and I am humbled and on my knees. But there is nothing weak about this.
Anyway...
The resort was again imaculate and when we transfromed it into the DESIRE Oasis that it becomes for us it was breathtakeing. I mean it. Women walked in and gasped. Crosses and slings by an outdoor pool. Spanking benches under canopies. A whipping post in the warmth of the sun. A spider web in the cool shade on the grass. Sex anytime, anywhere, and in any way a leatherwoman could imagine having it! And workshops and sex and workshops and play and workshops and popsicles delivered to you as you float in the pool. And water bondage, and great music (yay me). There is something magical that happens here that cannot take place anywhere else. A connection to the Divine (unless your a sex pig athiest then its all about "connecting to people" uuhhuuuuu) and a connection to the divine vulva all happen here on so many great levels. I am not doing well at telling you about DESIRE. Maybe if you missed it you'll have to come next year. Maybe if you went you could share it better.
I know only that we had one hell of a GOOD party! No drama!!!!! Thank Goddess. No bullshit. No broken hearts or broken heads that I know of. No crap. Just good clean honest to goodness leather women having leather sex and leather education. And more sex.

AHHHH hedonism.

We've been home and running through our days like they were warm butter. We are both at school, She to work and I to work and to learn. Summer is NOT the time to take classes but I am taking two and it's kicking my butt. I love it. But it's super hard to stay on top of anyting.

We'll leave for Hawaii in three weeks and the day we land I start my fall session.
UGH!

I have nothing but beauty in my busy life.

I'll have to do some blogging on surrender later. For now suffice it to say that I have fought for a while but gave in and THAT was the best thing I could do for either of us. We are closer and more intimate and more "together" than ever. And since we have always been just two degree's short of amazing, now it's nothing short of DAYUM!.

Talk to you soon.